What am i doing wrong?

oh fuck me!
my life sucks to my self!

what the hell am i doing wrong i mean jeez men WTF!

should i have to delete all of these drawings that i've put to the 2 of my hatena blog entries!

tell me your opinion because as i said that to my old hatena blog entry i care about my friends and their opinions!

why?
now i haven't got any chance to have Penelope & Karu as my friends!
i'm sad and dissapointed to my self!

i understand if the all of you are mad at me about this shit with the drawings!

i need something to be more cooler to my style!

as you can see i'm the one of the sonic fans too!
i love to draw my charas too!

well...i'm not one of the pokemon fans but i do care about it if you ask me that i know and the pokemon is the most cool thng that i should liked too but not because i don't like them a lot!
btw i like some pokemons and some characters of it!

sorry for getting out of the talking about my stupid mistake of my own jealousness and stupidness!

may i have the reason to invide you two to my chat on hatena haiku?

i care about my friends and ect!

i'm sorry about everything!

i hate my life and i wanna die,because i always doing mistakes and braking my sweet heart about them!

i understand if you don't want to listen me once again...
why?now i know that i've broke your feelings and your sweet hearts once more and my own too.

if you want to tell me that to import some old and new drawings of mine in a new hatena blog entry i will do it because i care about my friends,their opinions and their feelings too!

tell me something if you read and reply!

the things are getting more than worser to my self and why?
because i'm very childish,i have my own reasons and my own opinions!
i'm a stupid fucking child who still's cry about it mistakes that it done in the past,i should go to my DA account and delete some unwanted deviations that i don't need anymore,because no one cares about my own things!

i need to practice a lot now for talking very nicely to all of you around the hole internet!

i want a reason about something like that!

but don't you worry i will never doing things like this again...

now the only thing that i have to do it's for hiding my drawings and keep them safe and i will show you them all when i will return to deviantart after my 13th BDAY after 8 months!

BellaBeson (Bella),Bloodsisters4ever,Yasu-Kun and Karu (Stella----Bella) thank's for reading and replying to all of my hatena blog entries!
thank you to the 4 of you!
thank you so much my friends!

read and reply plz!

thank you all about that you've replyed to my blog entries thx!

sorry for telling bad things and ect!

bye!